August 2, 2011

 2011 wasn't the best year for me. I had a terrible injury, I was in a toxic camp cabin, I was babysitting all of summer, I had a rude volleyball team, and my best friend all of freshman year would not talk to me. You could say I was depressed.

 At the end of July and the start of August, I thought my life was about to turn around. I made a volleyball team at the club I have been wanting to play at for years. It unfortunately was a fellow rival of the club I had played at for years prior but I wanted to be on this team more than anything. Mostly because the because the volleyball team I was on was full of people who put me down and made me feel like I was bad at the sport I loved to play. {hellllllllo, can you say injured?}

 I was also very excited to stop babysitting four days a week 8-10 hours a day. Don't get me wrong, I love kids, but it was just so exhausting. I would have nothing else to do the entire summer, but that.

 However, on August 2, 2011, my heart broke into pieces when I found out I didn't make the Bowie High School JV volleyball team. As if I wasn't an emotional wreck already that year, this drove me over the edge. I'd lay in bed for quite sometime and even thought about quitting the volleyball team I just made. Not only that, I didn't even want to go to Bowie any longer. In between all of the tears and tissues, I would look up private schools that I wanted to attend. But at the end of it all, it was a good friend of mine who convinced me to stay at Bowie. I remember his words perfectly... "If you want to go, go. If you think it'll make you happy then you go kill it. If God wants you to make a decision, He'll make it right!"

 I am glad I decided to stay at Bowie. Not making school volleyball had {obviously} left a change in my life. I got to be in classes with people who I don't think I would've ever got the chance to meet; I wouldn't have taken classes I was interest in learning about. Because I didn't make volleyball, I have become a stronger and happier person. :) {I would love to say I have signed to play in college and later have gone pro, but that's Michael Jordan's story, and not mine...}

RIP Coach Jason Landers

I never got the chance to play for you at school, but I once got a huge bruise from you at club practice. :) You were so inspirational and coached with great enthusiasm for which I, and many other's, admired greatly. I am so happy to have had a chance to know you. :)